Why - An insight ✨

 

"Why?" , they ask
Why do you endure?
Why do you abide? Why?
Why do you restore?
Why do you forgive? Why?
Why do you choose to heal when you can destroy?
Why do you shelter those who wronged you? Why?
Why have you never seized what has always rightfully been yours?

Why have you never demanded the love you deserve?
I endure because it makes me stronger and them weak

I abide because I choose to

I restore because I am not aloof to the pain of being destroyed

I forgive because I know the burden of not being pardoned , one carries for my own shoulders are still sore from being crushed under the enormous weight of undeserved guilt

I heal for  there once was a time when I too battled my thoughts and sought a remedy to soothe the searing hot needles that jabbed my skin 

I shelter because I am no stranger to homeless nights and teeth rattling winters
I have bathed in bone soaking rains and warmed in the heat of the scorching sun

I have offered my luxuries what though they may be meagre , I have allowed others what I rightfully claim because, it is more dear to them than it shall ever be to me for it is not a reward I have earned but a gift I have received  and what use have I of such a gift that will not aid me in easing my dear ones ,my fellow survivors

I have not demanded love for it is a privilege to be loved. And privileges that are bestowed in fear are not privileges at all! They are blocks of stone- unfeeling and inhumane but love demands to be felt in a very human way 

I value that love for it is that which anchors us to ourselves , to our existence 

It is a warmth I have felt , from the bottom of my heart, it is a rhythm that makes my very being hum
Love is a song and the lyrics are my mark!

~Ananyaa Joshi